Well life is a fascinating mistress. She loves to throw you curve balls and expects you to hit a home run each time if you don't, well then you end up with the ball in the face. lol ... quite and image huh.. lol
Well I lost my job of 11.5 years - while I really truly did not like my job - in fact I hated it, it's kinda scary to be in your 30's and trying to figure out what to do with your life, and it's not like it's just my life either. I have my husband and my 2 kids. We've come to accept our current level of comfort and now we're 30K short. What to do.
Well 1.5 years later I'm still trying to figure that out. *sigh* I worked for that time as a contractor for an agency as well as a contractor on casual contracts for the gouvernment. While the casual contracts paid loads (and I do mean loads) more the agency contracts were for longer. But ultimately I'm back in the same boat, so when my last contract came to an end at the end of May I decided to take the summer with my kids and have fun. We'll figure things out. Other then my mat leave I've never taken EI so I filed my claim and started my leave.
Now at the end of Aug, I'm ready for the kids to go back to school. lol so very very ready... lol there's only so much that a mother can be expected to talk about Mindcraft, Tarrariea, or Plants vs Zombies Garden War far (those are all video games for those who may not know). While the boys only have the morning hours to play it's amazing how much of my day is taken up by these topics and how no matter whatever is being talked about that they manage to bring the topic back to the games. *sigh*. Love my boys though they do keep things interesting, but I do need adult time though and it's amazing how little of that you get when the kids are at home with you all day.
So back to the bug in my mind. What to do with my life? Do you know? I have no idea what to do. Do I go back to school? Do I find another contract? Do I try to find another career? Oh heck, I just don't know. All I know is that EI won't last for ever and with the kids going back to school now is the time to try and figure things out. What I wouldn't do to not have debt that needed paying. *sigh* I'd love to go into business for myself, but that is no easy feat to accomplish on it's own. But to really take all the things I love and make it into a job? will that just bring down the things I love into the hate category? that's my fear. I love to quilt and would love to have my own fabric store. I love to read and would love to have my own book store, and I love to cook and bake, and would love to have my own diner. Or even I'd love to have a B&B that would be great too. So many dreams and no experience or know how to get them started it really sucks.
So this is where my mind is at, it's kinda all over the place and I"ll need to figure things out soon, but in the mean time I needed some place to get these thoughts out... :)
