Well life is a fascinating mistress. She loves to throw you curve balls and expects you to hit a home run each time if you don't, well then you end up with the ball in the face. lol ... quite and image huh.. lol
Well I lost my job of 11.5 years - while I really truly did not like my job - in fact I hated it, it's kinda scary to be in your 30's and trying to figure out what to do with your life, and it's not like it's just my life either. I have my husband and my 2 kids. We've come to accept our current level of comfort and now we're 30K short. What to do.
Well 1.5 years later I'm still trying to figure that out. *sigh* I worked for that time as a contractor for an agency as well as a contractor on casual contracts for the gouvernment. While the casual contracts paid loads (and I do mean loads) more the agency contracts were for longer. But ultimately I'm back in the same boat, so when my last contract came to an end at the end of May I decided to take the summer with my kids and have fun. We'll figure things out. Other then my mat leave I've never taken EI so I filed my claim and started my leave.
Now at the end of Aug, I'm ready for the kids to go back to school. lol so very very ready... lol there's only so much that a mother can be expected to talk about Mindcraft, Tarrariea, or Plants vs Zombies Garden War far (those are all video games for those who may not know). While the boys only have the morning hours to play it's amazing how much of my day is taken up by these topics and how no matter whatever is being talked about that they manage to bring the topic back to the games. *sigh*. Love my boys though they do keep things interesting, but I do need adult time though and it's amazing how little of that you get when the kids are at home with you all day.
So back to the bug in my mind. What to do with my life? Do you know? I have no idea what to do. Do I go back to school? Do I find another contract? Do I try to find another career? Oh heck, I just don't know. All I know is that EI won't last for ever and with the kids going back to school now is the time to try and figure things out. What I wouldn't do to not have debt that needed paying. *sigh* I'd love to go into business for myself, but that is no easy feat to accomplish on it's own. But to really take all the things I love and make it into a job? will that just bring down the things I love into the hate category? that's my fear. I love to quilt and would love to have my own fabric store. I love to read and would love to have my own book store, and I love to cook and bake, and would love to have my own diner. Or even I'd love to have a B&B that would be great too. So many dreams and no experience or know how to get them started it really sucks.
So this is where my mind is at, it's kinda all over the place and I"ll need to figure things out soon, but in the mean time I needed some place to get these thoughts out... :)
Monday, August 18, 2014
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
First Blog Spot
So here's my first attempted at blogging... Sad in today's day and age huh? But hey better late the never is my motto. :) This is going to be my spot to kinda voice what's going on right now.
Currently I am a mother of 2 boys ( 8 & 6) together with my partner for 11 years ( or at least it will be in March of this year. As of October of 2012 I was with my employer for 11 years, till I got hit by the ressesstions hitting all the companies in our city. So I went from having a stable job to being unemployeed.
While at first I was rejoicing as I got a severance pay and had money to live off of to get us through the Christmas season as if there was nothing wrong. Even managed to keep myself busy enough to not really notice that I'm now coming up on my 3rd month of not working. It's really crazy how quickly time can pass. But now that Christmas is done and eveything is put away and the excitment of the holidays is done. I'm looking at the finacnces and they are a little scary looking. I now need to push myself to get a job... It's honeslty been over 12 years since I went looking for a job and back then everything kinda fell into my lap so now, it's kinda a scary world. I never really had to sell myself before, all my work that I did for, employer did it for me, and everyone would notice me for the work that I had done, or the other execs would put in their word for me. but now I'm on my own, and have to make myself stand out from a growing crowd of the unemployeed eek. Very stressful for me.
All that being said though, I have been enoying my time off. My house is clean, dinner is ready by 5:30 everynight, and the biggy, there's no work stress in me .. .lol it sounds funny, but as a Project coordintator working on over 700 events a year and being responsible for all the events quality, finanicals and reporting, it starts to become a lot after a while, and I was doing the job for 4 years, so there was a lot of build of stress from the day and then the kids and the endless talking and questions not to mention the odd tempertantrum that would pop up - it gives me a headach just thinking about it now. :) All that being said, while yes I'm stressed over money, it's kidna easy to put that on the back burner when the family is home and nice to just enjoy the family. My kids no longer ask if I'm going to work the minute I open my laptop. That goes a long way.
As well in all my free time, I'm trying to get a surplus of quilting for shows and markets. Now is the time and while I have loads of time, it's kinda funny how that ends up being more of a detrament to progress then anything, it's funny how the more time I have the harder it is to focus on what I want to do where when I had to time manage myself more so that I was able to get so much more done.
Mind you I do seem to have some progress I have completed 3 full blankets and am almost done my 4th one right now, I also created a about 10 christmas balls (very cool looking) so I'm making progress, but I would love to have more done, it's just not going as fast as I expected it to. But then again I am trying new techniques that I've never done and watching more tutorials to see how the "experts" do it. And may I take a second to give a shout out to internet learning... saves a body so much money.. :) Even the ones that I do pay for are pennies compaird to the in class classes.. and yet I'm still learning so much.
Well I think my next post I'll add pictures and see what happens from there... . In the mean time I'm off to comb the help wanted adds.. :)
Christal
Currently I am a mother of 2 boys ( 8 & 6) together with my partner for 11 years ( or at least it will be in March of this year. As of October of 2012 I was with my employer for 11 years, till I got hit by the ressesstions hitting all the companies in our city. So I went from having a stable job to being unemployeed.
While at first I was rejoicing as I got a severance pay and had money to live off of to get us through the Christmas season as if there was nothing wrong. Even managed to keep myself busy enough to not really notice that I'm now coming up on my 3rd month of not working. It's really crazy how quickly time can pass. But now that Christmas is done and eveything is put away and the excitment of the holidays is done. I'm looking at the finacnces and they are a little scary looking. I now need to push myself to get a job... It's honeslty been over 12 years since I went looking for a job and back then everything kinda fell into my lap so now, it's kinda a scary world. I never really had to sell myself before, all my work that I did for, employer did it for me, and everyone would notice me for the work that I had done, or the other execs would put in their word for me. but now I'm on my own, and have to make myself stand out from a growing crowd of the unemployeed eek. Very stressful for me.
All that being said though, I have been enoying my time off. My house is clean, dinner is ready by 5:30 everynight, and the biggy, there's no work stress in me .. .lol it sounds funny, but as a Project coordintator working on over 700 events a year and being responsible for all the events quality, finanicals and reporting, it starts to become a lot after a while, and I was doing the job for 4 years, so there was a lot of build of stress from the day and then the kids and the endless talking and questions not to mention the odd tempertantrum that would pop up - it gives me a headach just thinking about it now. :) All that being said, while yes I'm stressed over money, it's kidna easy to put that on the back burner when the family is home and nice to just enjoy the family. My kids no longer ask if I'm going to work the minute I open my laptop. That goes a long way.
As well in all my free time, I'm trying to get a surplus of quilting for shows and markets. Now is the time and while I have loads of time, it's kinda funny how that ends up being more of a detrament to progress then anything, it's funny how the more time I have the harder it is to focus on what I want to do where when I had to time manage myself more so that I was able to get so much more done.
Mind you I do seem to have some progress I have completed 3 full blankets and am almost done my 4th one right now, I also created a about 10 christmas balls (very cool looking) so I'm making progress, but I would love to have more done, it's just not going as fast as I expected it to. But then again I am trying new techniques that I've never done and watching more tutorials to see how the "experts" do it. And may I take a second to give a shout out to internet learning... saves a body so much money.. :) Even the ones that I do pay for are pennies compaird to the in class classes.. and yet I'm still learning so much.
Well I think my next post I'll add pictures and see what happens from there... . In the mean time I'm off to comb the help wanted adds.. :)
Christal
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